“And so I am thankful and glad, and I feel completely secure, because you protect me from the power of death. I have served you faithfully, and you will not abandon me to the world of the dead. You will show me the path that leads to life; your presence fills me with joy and brings me pleasure for ever.” Psalm 16:9-11 GNT
It wasn’t too many years ago when my dreams were fading, my confidence in people gone, and my health uncertain. Everything screamed to me that life was not fair and I was agreeing all the way. As I began to build my case against life, and all of the injustices, my heart quickly lost sight of everything good in my life. All of a sudden, nothing was good, nothing was right, and self was certainly getting promoted while the spirit was being ignored. Ingratitude had set up home in my heart and moved in under the pretense of “life is not fair.”
Then, one day the Lord asked me a question that consisted of three simple words. But these words changed everything because they exposed my heart and made me see who I had become. A woman of self justification. You see this is very subtle, one moment you are just wanting to do right and obey God, and then following Him cost you something, and you take it personally. You begin to make judgements against God, and others, and your hidden “stuff” gets exposed. This is what happened the day the Lord asked me, “Am I Enough?”
How I answered that or what I believed regarding that was everything. For, if He wasn’t enough then what I was declaring was a farce, but if He was enough, then I was being called to live out of that reality. If He was enough, then I would never have another excuse for judgement against my brothers and sisters, I would never have another excuse for my self justification. If He was enough then I needed to trust Him and let Him be enough in my life.
In that season, I easily could have convinced myself that it was more complicated than that, but it wasn’t and it isn’t. He is either who He says He is, or He is not. If He is enough then my life must adjust and gratitude needs to overflow. You see, life consists of two roads, two paths, two choices. We often think there are many roads, many different paths, many choices. But there aren’t. He is life, anything less is death.
So, in a moment of time with three simple words, my God revealed to me the path that leads to life. He flooded my heart with his presence and reminded me that only true joy and pleasure are found experiencing that He is enough. Sometimes this requires getting up from our places of pity and applying Truth to our places of pain. Sometimes it means not feeding the ungrateful attitude, but choosing gratitude even when life doesn’t seem fair.
We move from flesh to spirit when we live by the spirit and not the flesh. Is He enough? If He is, gratitude must be your response.
I wonder how that season would have been different for me had I chosen to joy in God regardless of my experience. I can almost feel the rich reward that I would have known if I had let Him be enough before those three words came.
Today, I am grateful that I can still say that He is enough. I have faced days of uncertainty since that season, and even at this moment have many questions about the future, but I do know without a doubt that He is enough for my tomorrows. So, for today, I will trust and lean hard into the One who leads me to life, joy, and overflowing realities of His presence.