“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39 ESV
“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.” Psalm 139:13-16 ESV
Early in my christian journey I was a bit of a runner. Not a runner in the sense of exercise, but in the sense of, “get me out of here, I don’t like this situation.” I remember packing up my little Chevette and heading to Ontario just to get away from a situation that I felt overwhelmed with. During that time period, I somehow did not fully grasp that God’s love was tangible and real in every place. There was no need to run for the situation that was causing me anxiety was already known to God.
It has been many years since those days of running and God has truly shifted my heart. He has taken me from being someone who would run away to being someone who has learned the value and richness of being planted. As my heart has shifted, so has my mindset. You see, what is the need of running when every detail of my life has been known to God since before I was ever born. The things I get so anxious over and may want to leave behind could very well be the things God wants to use to help me fully grasp a love that I cannot be separated from. A love that is true, and uncontainable.
This love knows me by name, knows my insecurities, my fears, and my need for solitude. This love does not hide from me when I feel anxious or troubled, uncertain or overwhelmed. He stands true to all that He is … reliable, dependable, and unstoppable. He was not surprised by my nature to run, but lovingly found me in all of my attempts and reminded me that all of my days were already taken care of. So, why not just lean hard on the One whose love never ran dry and who did not miss a detail of my life.
Today I am grateful that in the present moments of uncertainty I can know that I will ever be separated from a love that is True. I am thankful that He is a God of detail, so I do not have worry because He already has me covered.